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Inspiring words from a five-year cancer survivor

A Tribute to my Healing Buddy

by Denise Carter, written 2003, revised 6/08

I am now officially a survivor, living my life - hiking, building a magical relationship w/ my granddaughter. Every day I am grateful for sunrise, sunsets, the sound of birds. Every day is luminous with this gift called life.

I am living this life because of my energy partner. In those lonely times where I no longer believed such a life was in my future, she helped me see a better place. I wrote this poem five years ago. What I see now is that my time with my energy partner was not only pleasant, it was indispensable. I could not have withstood the bodily distortions, the nausea, loneliness and overwhelming onslaught of cancer treatment, without her.

So I am ever so grateful to Life Spark for providing this essential gift to others. Life Spark is the perfect name for this organization, except in my case, I think it was more than a spark of lifeit was a Super Nova of life. I feel honored and blessed that this poem came through me and may continue it's own life of gifting.

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Every Monday I look forward to entering my healing place. My Healing Buddy opens and holds this special space for me. The rhythm and regularity help me enter more deeply and quickly. To receive undivided , focused attention for an hour each week is the ultimate in being nurtured.

It's a place Ive brought my tears of discouragement, fears, confusion and pain and found a safe place to let them go. I have good doctors, but even with bright walls and happy naked head hats, Krispy Kreme donuts,and videos, I still feel like a human dart board. I often feel like I m crawling naked, stinking, famished, gaunt to Mondays where I can feel nourished, revived, and refreshed. Where I feel a warm blanket of love and care around those scared and lonely places in me. Where I can feel wide open spaces and expansive again. This is an oasis in the wilderness of treatment

Above all, my healing buddy opens a magical place a place of light and love and golden helpers and deep rest, a place beyond words, beyond pain, beyond illness. In her presence, I float to ethereal realms where I find once again, my strong, vibrant spirit. As we end, she says, welcome back and we smile knowing weve shared a mystery beyond either of us. Sharing the awe of that moment, my heart is opened wider and broader and I am utterly gratefulreplenished from an unfathomably deep pool that dilates and ripples eclipsing all pain and confusion, until only gratitude exists.

Healing Buddy love is the soft swish

Of dancing arms above my head

Like a soaring bird that lifts my heart

It is the place of golden light

A pool of love in which

I immerse and drink deeply

It is the soft lavender and indigo

Of silence and a rippling pool of

Gratitude growing in my heart

Overflowing in my eyes.

Thank you Life Spark!